Before I Break (If I Break #1.5) by Portia Moore


Rating: 3.5 out of 5 stars

Genre: Contemporary Romance

Release date:  September 5, 2014

Out of the past six years of my life, I only remember about half of it. After a dozen doctors and thousands in medical bills, I was diagnosed with a rare neurological disorder–one that causes me to lose track of time. Sometimes it’s hours, days or even weeks with no recollection of anything. The good thing is it’s been almost two years since I had my last ‘black out’. It sounds much better than what the doctors refer to them as, ‘episodes’, like my life is a freakin’ comedy. 

During those two years of normal, I finally managed to get my Bachelor’s degree, a job I love, and I’ve just proposed to a woman who has been there for me through it all. For the first time in a long time everything is on track.

Until a strange woman shows up at my door—she says I’m her husband and I think she’s crazy. Until, I get a voice mail on my phone. It’s from a guy name Cal. The weird part is, it’s the same name the strange woman called me. What terrifies me, is this guy Cal…his voice sounds just like mine

I highly recommend reading the first part If I Break before reading this otherwise you won’t really have much of a clue as to what’s going on.

So after having read ‘If I Break’ I was immensely eager to be able to learn what happens next. With the ending I witnessed (not a cliff hanger but still had this ‘I wonder what happens next’ feel) I was left bereft and excited to learn what route the next part would take. Let me tell you, usually I always make up some type of scenario or different outcomes which I feel may happen when dealing with a series. With this book it was simply not possible, I have not a clue whether Cal will ever return or not. So this novella proved to be an exciting follow-up from the first part and it did kind of satisfy my book needs.

This little story is told from the eyes of Chris. The previous part left me with many questions regarding the little secret that was revealed at the end. Chris was a mystery to me having just been introduced to him at the very end. Therefore through reading this I was able to decipher some of the issues that the previous book left me with. For starters I was able to figure out Chris a little better. The kind of person he is, what he has to deal with and how in the dark he truly is about his life. The last scenes where a certain secret is revealed are retold from Chris’ point; how he felt and what he thought. It helped relieve some tension that the storyline produces immensely. And I’m also left wondering whether Cal will make a return. I hope he does, I like that guy way better than Chris!

I don’t know if it’s just me but this story fucks with my mind. Am I the only one who thinks of Cal as a completely different entity to Chris? I don’t know. I just ended up with a few questions in the end. How can we be so sure that Chris is the actual real personality and not Cal? Can they both not merge together and remember everything that took place?

My heart absolutely breaks for Lauren. There is not actually a solution to such a problem and there’s nothing she can do about it. Except may be try to bring her husband back which she has every right to. I detest Chris’ parents. The way they kept everything a secret when it was not their secret to keep in the first place. Even if it was supposedly for the benefit of their son it didn’t make sense for them to keep something so major from Chris.

I am rooting for Lauren and Cal to eventually find their happily ever after. I cannot wait to discover more about this story. November 1st that’s a two month wait. I can do that right?

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