My rating: 4 stars out of 5
This is not a romance in any sense of the word. If that’s what you’re looking for, don’t read it.
“The past has shaped me, molded me into a monster. A monster with a persecuted heart and a dead soul.”
Me and this book got off to a bad start as I didn’t think I would get out of it what I initially thought. There was this whole contradiction of Seraphina, and how she’s a complete, sorry for my language, b*itch in the most evil of ways, but still somehow Fredrik loves her? When someone shows the kind of disturbing and cruel behaviour as her, without even one little redeeming quality, I would not call that love, nor would any sane person run after someone who hurt them so cruelly, it goes against our human instincts. So while I was fuming at that particular time, I actually found myself enjoying the story later on. I know I am really in to a book when it’s difficult for me to stop reading because I am so far gone in to the story. And things actually started making sense to me later on too, when Cassia came in to the picture, boy was I glad about that!
I think this book showcases perfectly, how we don’t always encounter in people what we think we should. Even though the setting is all about this crazy world of killing and secret organisations, in my opinion the story touched reality more due to its message. We are presented with a complicated man, Fredrik Gustavsson, and we delve in to the life that he lives. He’s faced some tragic horrors in his passed which resulted in him not being able to live like what most people consider to be ‘normal’. His existence was a lonely one up until meeting Seraphina, he was then able to control himself with her help. But then Seraphina leaves and he’s determined to find her at any cost possible because he believes she’s the only one who can help him control his urges in the darkness, until he meets Cassia that is.
I loved how this was so much more than a romance; it showed us the dark sides of love and how sometimes love just isn’t enough. It shows us how one single person, Seraphina, can be so complicated and may be she’s just too messed up to be with him in any way. I could tell that something major will happen while reading the story and I was in anticipation for it, but I definitely wasn’t ready for the reveal!
I hope Fredrik gets his happy ending because this man needs to find his way out of the sadness he surrounds himself with. This story really broke my heart in places, and I admit I don’t like that feeling, but it’s also what made it a very powerful read. I also liked how it was very different to the first two parts of ‘In the company of killers’, as like I said it touched on a very sensitive topic. But I can say I just fell in love with this series even more. I am immensely looking forward to reading ‘Seeds of inequity’ in the near future!